I...

November 21st

I am safe. One of the maids claimed that she had been the one in the stables at night, though she only admitted to visiting, not flying.

I do not know why she would do such a thing.

I...ah...

Damn it. This could ruin everything.

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October 26th

Mothers...

[pause]

Ah...it does not matter.

September 30th

There is a cold wind today, coming from the north. Asrien says it is a sign of a long winter yet to come.

He is most likely right.

Flying...ah, it is everything I dreamt of. And more.

Nothing shall ever match it. Nothing

[long pause]

September 14th

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August 15th

I am going to do it. I am going to take one of the dragons out for a flight, soon...maybe tonight.

How did this never occur to me before? I have always seen that if you want something, you take it. I have done that.

But never with this.

...July 29th...9th

One year. It all goes so fast.

Too fast.

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July 5th

.......

I don't....

...

I hear your whispers

June 28th

Today the woman came here. She did so openly, to the horror of all those gossipping about her. All saw here.

Even I saw her.

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June 8th

Lord Father is with her again. It has been three months now.

What is he doing?

What is he hiding?

May 30th

It is very quiet here, with Kres and Dante both gone. The older girls are now of an age when they are expected to become little ladies and so no longer play as rambunctiously as they once did. And Faydra has always been a very easy baby, who hardly cries at all.

It is nice...for now.

May 11th

Kresley has decided to journey to Glashen in order to propose. He has managed to convince Dante to accompany him and everyone is very happy. I am very happy

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Will I ever be married and have children I can claim? Only to someone desperate enough for a connection to consider the Lord's bastard.

Or for love. Ha.

April 15th

These rumours...

...

One never knows what to think of such things...

Lord Father is known to

...

April 7th

Faydra is nine months old...

How much faster these nine months passed.

March 10th

I spent today with the girls, all three of them. Lord Father has calmed somewhat but his temper still runs hot. It is still best to stay out of his way...and so I did. They were glad to spend the time together.

It is amazing how fast they have grown. Elenya is so near marriagable age...and Ireniel not far behind.

Faydra of course is still a baby...but ah, it will not last...

February 25th

Lord Father is in a foul mood today. No one appears to know why. He had been quick to anger and prone to stormy silence. It is a great puzzle, though none dare approach him right now to put together any more pieces.

Kresley and Asrien plan to go flying today. They have tried to convince Dante to join them but he has still not recovered from the death of his dragon. It has been over a year yet still nothing. He has flown sporadically but refuses to find another permanent mount. Eventually even Kres will give up on him.

The girls have new dresses and they are pleased. Even Faydra received one. They look quite lovely. As does their mother.

January 28th

Ah...it's Wednesday.

A question...the question...

What do you fear most?

January 26th

The new maid is clumsy. There is nothing broken yet but it is only a matter of time. She looks too old for such foolishness.

Ah...but foolhardiness does sometimes increase with age. Yes, it does. I have seen it. We have all seen it.

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I have not been in her bed in weeks. I do not want to be there.

Faydra is so...she changes the meaning of everything.

January 4th

A new year. A new...everything.

Ah...




Kresley hopes to be married before the next one.

October 23rd

Ah...nothing is the same anymore.